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heyhey~! today 29th october is my darlin best fren's bday!!!! wahahahaha happi bdae again jiayi!!!!too bad u cant meet us lor..but nvm~! studies more impt de~!
yepz..today me ar....woke up at 530am lor..to fry rice to bring to sch..den spent abt half an hr cutting the muahchee for my classmates frenz and jiayi...hahaha...yupz..was super bz...and i did the sandwich for jiayi the last minute but i dun screw everything up kkie~! still i managed to meet stephie at my bus stop on time~! 645am haha
yepz..we took bus 3 to jiayi's place lor...and somehow..some funny thing happened and i ain gonna write here..those tt i dare to tell u de..my close frenz will noe abt it..ill tell u guys personalli haha....
yepz aniwae we went to sch as per normal lo....super tiring day haha keep wanting to fall aslp..but happie la...today so mani pple tried my fried rice! yeah!! but most importantli is rice and steph...hope they like and eat full full lor~! yuppiz.haha tml cant do for em liao mama will nag de...hab to wait for next wk le i think...hehe paiseh wo..
after sch me karen and stephie went to tampines 201 to eat ban mian together!!! haha nice lor...i ate finish!! first time haha yepz...we crapped a lot..abt nicholas..haha and vanessa and sharon..eeeee all not v nice pple rite? haha..
oh ya!! nicholas fell down today! i think 2 times but i onli saw once..in lt...chinese lect hahaha he tripped!!! the other one was in his own class...he kicked something..lost his balance and..wooo tts it haha earthquake!
haha im damn spastic today la..*slap* *slap* *slap*
today's bad..realli bad...
woke up with a nice smile lor...cox i made burger for rice steph and melvin...woke at 520 am to do...den everything so smooth so nice...till i go sch..
finished my burger and recieved a wonderful sms frm dear roger to scold me for doing things to his precious felicia...wadeva lor..after wad ive done...
my dislike for felicia links back all the way frm first 3 mths lor..since she fooled ard with yuehan..i regarded yuehan as a fren then...haiz...i juz dun like it when pple bully my frenz but it seems tt im too kpo lor...but i was close with yuehan u see..
yepz..den now roger..after all she's done to him..makes me dislike her more..i diao her and i dun like her its my business...wad for she complain and add on to roger's burden?? today i give roger face lor...i aint scared of her aint scared of him..i regard roger and respect him as a fren..who noes how come he bcomes like tt after noeing tt pretty gal..
wadeva it is lor...it juz broke my day..made me sad and disappointed with myself..cox i acted like some havent grow up ah lian..haiz..was supposed to meet someone during lunch today at library there but nth happened..i waited lor! haha stupid me..but nvm la..i aint ani nice gal.went to the canteen to 'settle' tt felicia prob thingy..i felt like back in cchs when we had to meet up and settle disputez..with all the vulgars and things..i dunwan to relive history..i wana get out of those..why must felicia appear? and to think tt all she's done...to all the boyfrenz she had..she still can lie in front of everyone...doesnt she feel ashamed at all??
yepz had lessons today in lt4....first time ever i turned purple...i was super cold..staying in there for 3 hrs str8...my finger nails turned purple...my fingers turned dull...my face turned pale as wad pearlin and emeris said..and ys said my lips were kinda purple too..i shivered and trembled...first time cold till this extend..nv once so jialat b4 de...yupz...had stephie's jacket lor..and ne hugged me when i most needed hugs..i so touched..she hug me and make me feel pampered...i so long nv hugged le..jiayi!!!! haha...hey oh ya...today stephie rice and victor came my hse to play lor..den my mama juz toked to me...
she ask me dun too guo fen....she says me and jiayi better be juz like she and her best fren jiu hao....wad she means? she means im a les...
i told her a million times i aint a les le..y doesnt she believe me?? it hurts u noe..to b doubt like tt..altho she noes ive been hurt like hell by bryan...but i stepped out of it..i aint tt stupid to be a les juz cox bryan dunwan me lor..she juz doesnt trust me..wads the use of tokin to her...
today sucks lor..everyone doubts me...tml is my dear jiayi's bdae!! i hope she'll b happi lo...i rather give her all my happiness..let her b happi for tml~!
feelin kinda of down now...complex feelings...i oso dunno lar..wadeva..let it be..juz came back frm 'breakfast' and i think mahjong session is gonna start rather soon...hope they start fast..den leave me alone..let me use the com alone..let me rot in my room alone..let me be....wadeva im now..haha
not lookin forward to sch animore..letting everything off!...borin life..i wana see godma..miss her again..shd i go scan her pics into this blog too? let u guys see how beautiful she is...at least to me and godpa..yupz..see ya..off to update a more personal diary
yoz!! haha today went out with s304 peeps~! so fun...altho i aint a 304..
i belong to a borin 303..
had lectures this morn..all was boring...except econs when i was bullied by ys!he took my drq away took my pencil box took my hp..hahaha but it kept me awake..as i was also smsing..
yepz..den we went orchard to eat d'crepes~! cox got coupon...kaoz i eat so much icecream recentli..i dunwan b feimei!!!! save me pls!! hahaha im fallin in love with cakes with icecreams!!
yepz after tt we shopped ard..bought an emily strange's GET lOST...$2.90 and a pair of cross earrings at the same price too~!hahaha yepz den we went to cineleisure and eat again......FEIMEI!!!haha im a copydog...bleah!
and smthing weirdoooo happened hahaha...we wanted to go home de~! but the few gals wanted to rush back to heeren to ask tt japjap for his name!! haha
erm...but tts not my forte so me and rice siam one side..haha we went to shop ourselves and waited for their call to meet back..haha
his name is joe...okie lor..not v shuai le..but aiyah nvm they think shuai jiu shuai..i oso dun care!yepz..den we went home lor..nth much la....juz another normal day~! juz came back not v long ago frm dinner at bedok blk 510 market~! haha
yo in sch now..haha shd b pw now but the stupid tan hwee chiang nv come...but yeah!!
yepz..juz got scared by a stupid email haha..lame lor...all paulus's fault..he on the com sound den it says touchin story..so i tot is swt stuff de...who noes..haha its smthing scary..
haha shocked lo...yepz..wana update abt yday ann's bdae celebration..
guess wad i found out?? those few in my gang..tsy they all oso saw b4 genevieve's blog!! thru jiayu lo..haha jiayu is coming back this december so i tink they will b back together..
yepz..we met at ard 6 yday at bugis..b4 tt i after sch went with melvin to marina sq to get my tinted specs!!! hahaha its cool i think..look like shades to me...but my meimei say i suck haha..mama says its too big for me..implying tt my eye is small..
yepz..den yday went to eat NYDC with melvin...nice food!! but the waiter and waitresses there are damn efficient..havent finish they ask if they can clear the table not..hahaha
yepz den we went to carrefour to buy my blue berry morning cereal!!!! my fav fav fav hahahaha...but this morn cox i too slow le..den din get to eat my cereal lo
so our olf gang met up...got me dawn dardar tsy ann and chewhong and jinwen~! but jinwen was damn late..
we went to swensens lo...got coupons~! since i ate earlier liao so i onli took a soup and half an icecream..the other half i gave to dardar as usual..haha
yday quite fun lor..i kept laffing..esp at smthin..ann's bdae mah den the swensens pple gave her a free icecream thing den took a pic of her..and tt weirdo ann gave a damn spastic piggy face..hahaha she tot onli take pic..
who noes the guy go put her pic into the com at the shop and used it as screen saver and printed one out for her..
we laffed at it..cox its ugly..haha she was rather sad esp when a little boy walked past the com and EEEEEE SO UGLY!! hahaha....ann screamed lor~!
the whole swensens is filled with our laughter and crap haha
yepz den me and tsy together with liying and chewhong left at 8pm...liying left at bedok leaving tsy me and chewhong..i forgot chewhong moved to pasir ris near mjc liao den tsy made him send me home..
i dun like it at all...i was kinda pissed off yday..tsy ann dawn all pushed me to chewhong..they shd noe how i feel if they realli care for me lo..i think..onli dardar dint do tt to me..well...at least still got dardar lo..
yepz...chewhong sent me home..i din realli bother abt him..juz listened to my radio and he toked to me abt econs..he say he fail everything.blablabla...den i onli ask him go buy our jc's tys...dun wish to b too close with him...den i juz said bye without turning and left..bad right?? i feel damn bad towards him..
but this thing hab been draggin on for 4 yrs..i noe its impossible and everyone noes it is impossible..ive hurt him so mani times since sec 2 lo...its time i end it..i dunwan to alwayz wana kelian him den tok to him...i dun like him and i dunwan him to treat me well..he's onli makin me feel guilty...
why shd i treat the person i dun like nice and well...hurt myself?? hahaha hurt myself is nvm lo..im nth and not impt...i dunwan to hurt pple!!
okie...gotta go pei emeris tok liao..haha...later wana go supermarket walk walk see see if there is ani food i can buy for 'someone' (u noe...) haha..
hmmm like quite long nv update le..
so today come and crap a bit
today oso nth much..got back results and i dun wish to tok abt it further..leave it alone cox i dunwan my frenz or anione to feel sad..it aint worth a single bother..
yupz..juz did hsework..mopped flr..washd kitchen and cleaned toilet...haha..so sian!!! hopefulli tml will b a better day..i haven eat yet..was hungry and not animore now...juz cooked for aiai..i feel damn bad.i put her on the stupid wooden chair den forget to let her down..hahaha...for 1/2 hr lor~!! baddie me..haha
yoyoyo!!!! today damn happie~!~!!~ for once in so long....me rice steph and jia!!! finalli reunited and had dinner together~!~! u noe how wonderful it feels??? omg...i love this feeling..the damn close and no awkwardness no fakeness~! pure frenship....i love this true bonding we have~!rice steph jia~!~! i love u guys!
yupz today mjc had the first and ever open hse thingy...i wasnt enthu at all lor...earli morn onli i brought scissors they din...haiz..so i went out of sch with steph to buy lor..after walkin for so long we bought nth but icecream haha
stupid la..as steph says s303 realli suck i think so too...i cant click with the pple in there...and i cant socialise as freeli as i am to others...there is a sense of FAKENESS in those frenships....i dun like such frenships...no sincerity..still i choose stephie rice and jia!!!!!
aiyah wadeva la haha....s303 juz suck! im gonna hab a bad time with this class..heck it..i might not end up with em again
yepz...v happi today la! except for some stuffs...somethings i saw somethings i heard..wadeva but got the reunion!!!its gd enuf to make me happi and not b sad~! hahaha
hmmm..today did nth much..slpt at 3am ynite thinking of smthing..den 5.45 seems to fly by when i fell aslp..first time ever i got woken up by an alarm..
went to sch to rot..was with 304 most of the time..theyre more funki and more me? i dunno..altho im a 303..i prefer to b part of 304..
yepz den after sch went to ps with steph alex victor and alvin..watch movie underworld...dun realli understand the movie and the most disgusting part is the cut brain thingy..pui! so er xin lor..no wonder nc 16..
b4 the movie we went to buy some food lor..and i got a little pissed cox got one auntie cut my queue den after alex buy liao the auntie selling the thing treat me like transparent skipped me and attended to another customer! din say sorry din anithing..give me ap somemore..but tt was nth lor..
and i saw priscilla..rem duckie?? yepz priscilla..i saw yuxian first and her whole gang la.den yuxian saw me..ran to tell prisc..den tt prisc looked over and well..i saw her too...and she gave me the "haha ure in uniform?" look..like..i cant b in jc like tt..
i diaoed her as usual..haha..den we watched the same movie..she gave me the innocent face
den after movie we went toilet..same toilet!! she walked past me and like..rolled her eye? i ignored the first time..den second time..
yuxian and her frenz see me like see ghost like tt..all gather one side toktoktok..den b4 i went out i diaoed em again..haha
dun like to see her again...dun like dun like...i was sad yday..v v sad..so tot tt i going out wud b fun..but i saw her..
seems like i cant click with ani priscillas in the world..wadeva la..i dun need ani priscilla as fren hahaha
papa need to go to indonesia again...haiz..and mama and papa juz quarrelled..mama as usual dun like the tot of papa going overseas lor..den they quarrel...
haiz..wadeva...
results wise..i havent got back ani...rice and stephie..comeon..dun think of it too hardli..take it easy..everything will b fine in the end..no matter wad ill b with u guyz..our results are similar rite? noone will leave kkie?..im thinking..when i get back my results on monday...i wun wana see my results..i scared..i admit i am..im scared to let my godma..my mama and papa down...papa says noone in the cheong family shd go poly..i dunwan to be kicked out of the hse..and end up in the streets?
haiz..who wan to help me see my results??? i dunwan see myself..i need someone to help me!
today was nothing much..juz went to sch for SAt lecture..by tt wadeva guy.tot tt he was quite cool and alrite yday de..his accent nice..but today he rather lame and i dun like him liao haha
den tt gal i mentioned...her name is spelled as cheeyun not chieuyun as i spelled it...she sat in front of us today lor..hahaha kill her ar..keep turning back to look at us...i dun like her lo..hahaha but aniwae..she juz suck~!haha
yupz den after sch went to tm with stephie..we went to walk ard...a while lor..go see things..saw a nice pierre cardin bra! got the number seven 7!! baseball kind lor..sporty de..so nice..but..no money to buy la..sianz..haha
den nth to do le so we came home..yupz..tts it for today lor...lame and boring haha
haha got something else nv add!!! hahaha juz tot of it so chiong to add now while watching holland v!
its abt this stupid gal of s211~! she diaoed karen and diaoed yumin lor!!!
dunno who the hell she is..think she v pretty in sch oso need to put foundation and concealer~!! haha....disgusting woman...aniwae her name shd n dunno wad chieu yun?? aiyah dunno how to spell..aniwae she is juz a gal who nv ties her hair and is plump!! idiot..she diao em..
ive noticed her quite long le..nv tie hair den quite flirty kind..haha..too bad she did something~! to diao my frenz..she re cchs pple...bleah~! tts it for her..haha
we gonna get back?? haha
hmmmm she likes vinson for sure lor..for wad i saw in the past..haha
one gal one guy alone in the class of s211 so close somemore..like wana kiss like tt...den somemore he touched her hair~!i h0pe vinson has better taste den tt..den to like tt gal who is so....i bwg haha...
this is a damn bad entry la..haha but...bleah!!!! who ask her bully my fren~!
this mornin was a total failure..i din slp lor!!! wad the hell
my family played mahjong till 2 3 am in the morning when they knew i had sch the following day! they screamed played and laffed..
i was on my bed..trying to slp! and everytime i almost knocked off they screamed!! so i had to use my radio~! either its too soft tt i still can here em or too funky the song to fall aslp..no nice songs i like too!!
so at ard 2 am..i pekcek..woke up to watch tv..nice le! din expect got such an old show..got 2 xiaohudui members..got takeshi kaneshiro got lin zhi yin..haha..its an army show..lame la..but they were like super young then..mayb 16 or 17..haha i juz laffed throughout...and i juz started watching the mahjong players wan slp le...but i heck care..i continue to on the tv and the lights..haha who ask em make me cant slp~!
den finalli at ard 4am..e show finish..den i wanted to slp..haha guess wad?? snores started coming in!!! bside me blablabla...i turned in every direction of the bed liao..cover my head till cudnt breathe still can hear!! den in the end i pekcek juz sit and listened to music to the time to prepare for sch..
its not the end of the frustrating thing yet..i walked out onli dad ask me why i nv slp..i told him 'so noisy how to slp?' and i got a scolding..say i show no respect.
den i went into the toilet and washed my face..midway ma juz open the door and ask me to wash outside cox she wana use the toilet!! my god..i was like.."oei cant u see im using the toilet?" but i din say lor..i went out let her use..feel so weird..but haiz..ruined my day..
dad sent me to sch den the day began...
lecture whole day for oral presentation for PW.learning agora for bazaar.and SAT which last frm 7.45 to 1 plus! wad shit..damn boring and i onli slpt a bit for SAT..cant blame too tired liao.
den after which we had to meet ah cheng for PW..onli a while abt 5 to 10 mins..heng ar..haha otherwise ill knock out..i came home changed and slpt~! for how long i forgot le..shd b 2 or 3 hrs ba..haha
whole day nv eat..mayb onli 2 pieces of cookies i bought when i was out last nite..now 6 plus liao..can smell food..but is frm other hses..ma went out and she nv instruct me to cook..so i suppose i juz hab to wait...haha
tml can dun go sch?? haha sat onli lor!! i oso dunno...i dun go oso sianz.stay at home noone pei me..go sch oso sian..dun like this feeling..
aniway today juz suck..haha
hey guys! haha i went out today!!!!with rice~!
actualli yday jioed jiayi de den she last min her mama ask her go shoppin so nvm lo...den stephie actualli meeting us liao den oso din go cox got stomach pain..so in the end left me and rice~! but nevertheless still worthwhile~!
haha we met at cityhall went to citylink to buy her new wallet..damn nice haha..
den went to rafflescity to buy my clinique products which cost me 59 bucks lor!! haha i oso bought body lotion contact lenses solution.it amts to nearli a hundred bucks..haha den we went to bugis...
rice bought a black tee and its nice too..super cool haha rice le..her taste sure cool de lor..haha den we shopped ard and found out smthing...damn sexist...the guys clothes all so nice de...den gals one so ugly..haha sometimes i wish im a guy..buy clothes so easy and so nice somemore..haha
yupz..den we bth went giordano and bought a polo tee each! same one...green colour de..its damn nice too haha everything is nice!! yupz...big sense of accomplishment and den we went home frm there lo..
we saw so mani gays today..eeeee..haha toked abt the issue and gays and lesbians too...cool man..haha
yupz i came home den did self french manicure..damn ugly i tell u..but nvm la..who asks my nails so ugly.haha forgot wad i wana write le...haha nvm...
today is nice~! happi happi...yupz tts it..see ya!
=) juz woke up after a tired day....
yday was fun!! fanny's wedding...she is soooo beautiful..so cute...its a cute wedding instead of realli formal lo..haha
yupz i wore a gown...long till ankle kind..i was so worried tt im too short for it..haha..but in the end i still wore it..pple say quite nice and tt ive grown up..
i had an impt job yday! haha to stand at the steps b4 the bride and groom goes up the stage..altho seems extra but i am supposed to make the bride calm down and go up the stage with a beautiful smile!! haha...and she did..im so glad..haha actualli i was scared too..i scared my clumsiness would make her fall down..cox im supposed to help her pull her skirt and lay it well!haha
ya..yday went shoppin with jiejie and her bf lo..went to prada topshop and daniel yen.i went daniel yen to try on several gowns but sis said i look fat in those short dresses...i suppose its cox of my shoulders lo haha
hmmm yupz...and i met melvin yday...cox jiejie and her bf..shop with em i like a big lightbulb..so we met and walked to ps go see if there's ani gowns for me..but dunhab..we ended up at ssc where i saw roy melvin's frenz yuanshyuan nelson ramen and roger..haha...quite fun lor..den after which i was supposed to meet mama at orchard mrt to bring her to the wedding banquet..but..haha imperial dunno wad..i dunno where..so melvin pei me go find and see where it is lor....haha....its quite ulu..its in the middle of the top story carpark in taka! haha..but okie la..yapz..i was damn happie lo..and the wedding was fun too...everything is nice..haha..
yupz but today will kind of be boring for me..im gonna stay home..my feet hurt a bit cox yday wear heels run ard walk damn long..gonna do hsework pack rm clean hse and bath/groom my little baby aiai!! hahaha..yupz..tml i oso dunno how...sure v bored..sianz..haha but shd b fine la..ill find things to do..
yupz..see ya guyz
exams are over!!!! wad the hell haha but i aint happie wo..feel sianz and sianz sianz sianz! no motive le..no more goals to achieve..my short term goal is over..now muz think of another goal to keep me going....haha..shoppin?? its fanny's wedding today..i was excited abt it yday! den dunno why today after exam den sian diao le..in sch everyone seem happi..haha of cox rite...but i aint! wads wrong? haha..i oso dunno..juz damn weird.haiz..ignore me ba..
the goal for today..to bath aiai.bath get ready makeup everything and wait for mama come home..den go meet jiejie and her bf to shop ard..i hope i can find something nice to make me happi eh..hope la..ya..den go fanny's wedding and end my day..
tml haha...nth to say...feel like crying aR!..haha crazy me..yepz tts it bye
oh ya..and i rem stephie..
edwin hid in the library's fire extinguisher rm..hahaha and we juz ran all the way down and out of the library..
and the other time tt we all pon class..haha we met at 7am at the 81 bus stop!! all ready to go sch but we din and saw pauline choy at the busstop while waiting for jiayi to come meet us..we ran all the way rite~!
haha and we called mr conrad to tell him tt we those FEW are not going sch and instead going to visit schs..haha we visited srjc and tjc!
life was so fun then.mr conrad was nice...mdm chua the chi teacher was blur..everything was juz so nice..s304 is the secons 2harmony to me..everyone is so united..i miss nas kailin rina jinghui ashwin edwin peiyee dawn so mani of em at tp..and now we aint tt close to the malay guys animore..onli left me steph rice vic alex chin...
are frenz realli juz for a period of time in our lives? why cant i keep a frenship nice and beautiful?? ive lost so mani gdgd frenz..pri sch dudes like luigi weelie cynthia melanie michelle lim michelle ng nancy.cchs muggers like reuben tsy dardar dawn jielin jiaen ann shumei mandy genevieve...bryan..ever since we broke i hardli ever contact him..isit realli tt realistic?but bryan..haha i oso dun care le
and since mjc...kevin and the 304 gang...now wad ive left is still jiayi steph and rice who has pei me thru so much..new frenz im gonna treasure.truly treasure.but im someone who hangs on to the past too..how i wish i can see everyone again..i promise i love all of em..including genevieve..realli...
juz saw this frm stephie's blog..see this..reminds me of the old good s304!!
Remains
Bus moving by that particular road,I remembered I could have died there.Can you imagine,if i really died there,there's wouldnt be me here typing this?
CCHSM uniform,I was labelled a communist.
7 of us,Me,Meiyi,Clarice,Jiayi,Xueqi,Peiyee and Claressa.
Horny..Conrad and Kailin's dedication..
The study corner opposite S304 classroom,all of us lied to Chinese teacher that the lights are spoilt (in fact we actually dim it).Went there to do compo instead.Got news of Valerie with leukemia.I cried
Footprints in the beach,reminds me of S304.
Sunrise,all of us awaiting for it and forgone our sleep.
2 BBQs,ended with scenes of sunrise in East Coast.
The Spider Web in West Coast,Jing Hui was at the highest point without a single sound,and he tried to remove the knots.
He din,of coz...=)
MJC school hall,everyone viewed that touching videoclip before heading off to take O level results.
That Blk 151 busstop,a Mickey Mouse was found and Vic even piggy-back Jinghui in attempt to get it down.And took a foto of Alex posing cool.=/
For wat?Do you realise,sometimes we do things without thinking wat's the point of doing it.But we simply do it for the sake of doing it,not for the sake of consequences.
Library,the runnings frantically from Chinese teacher.Edwin,hid in that small room.
Lecture Hall 4,with Paulus taking our class photos.
Guitar,with Mr Conrad playing songs for the class.
Polyclinic MCs,everyone took from different polyclinics on that day.
Chalet,Jinghui stayed in the bathroom to air dry himself.
We did and seen things that we nv b4.
And all the joy..the sad and the memories,are just like leaves attached to a tree,a never dying tree.
steph...i miss 304 too...the times that we had..a lot of first times in this 3 mths..in this yr..and i love 304..
i hope noone frm 304 gets out..ex 304...
haha i juz now typed one long entry..but i saved it and i dunno where it is saved to! hha cool me..blur like hell
today i hab no paper on so i stayed at home to 'study' for econs.
yday i started studying at ard 11..to 2am den mama asked me go slp..wanted to chiong all the way but haha bullshit lo..ya so i woke up again at 6am for a reason haha..felt v v happi dunno why..pple hab exam stress and i keep feelin happi lo..i guess i stressed till go crazy le..econs econs econs..haha marginal productivity..wage determination..naationalisation and privatisation keep going ard in my head..sianz
juz read rice's and steph's blog..haiz..kinda demoralised..we're all in the same situation..im damn troubled by tt..i dunwan to leave juz like tt..i dunwan to see anione leave too..why we have to face this..wad if one of us leaves? i dunwan tt to happen..haiz..i may seem to smile all the time in sch lo..but im realli scared..poly is too cold a place for me..u guyz noe me..i need frenz..i need love and warmth frm everyone..such a cold place will onli put me in a fridge..stagnant.
aiya dunwan go think..wana b happi..its all set le..fate is decided by God..tml is Fanny's wedding!!!! jiejie wans to pon her lecture den me her and mama go shoppin!! haha i wana buy the topshop dress le!! cox jiejie gonna wear till v nice..den this meimei cannot wear tt ugly rite? throw her face..yupz but i think its ard 68 bucks lo..tube dress..but i like it v much!! haha lame me..sian la..3 liao le..mugging time?? no mood lo!! haha okie la..see ya guyz..love ya!! b happi okie come'on..life isnt the end yet..exams onli ma! why let it bother us? get it over and play hard k!
freaky physics!!! haha damn tough the paper..sian diao lo..almost din hab enuf time for mcq..but mcq was fine..its the section 2 and 3..wa damn it manz..haha i see le i gong diao..
chinese started at 1pm..den was pekcek cox dunno which idiot took my chi dictionary..den at the last min emeris gave it to me! haha someone took it la..dunno who la..den paper 1 i used 45 mins and had 45 mins left..i was e onli one slpin lo..oopz haha..den when paper 2 juz started my heart muscles pain again..i wanted to ask e teacher to allow me go bag take painkillers de but in the end i chose not to..
oh ya saying of the pain..damn tt ms tan! i spent 23 bucks to get tt mc and she tell me cannot use..she wan a letter frm doctor..ask her go to hell..i wun go take de..haha enuf is enuf so much of my money gone..at most i everyday go sch dun take earli leave or wad lo! i pain her prob..haha
haiz sianz..juz found another pimple..stress all stress fault!! hahaha sianz diao liaoz...i tml no sch!! cox tml i no exams on..tml is chem! den thurs is econs..haha
hey jia! thurs i going to do manicure after exams or wad cox i hate my nails eh? yupz jio u out if u free la..but think u got lesson..see how ba kk?
see ya
juz came home from the math exam..it was okie la..oso dunno whether my answers are right or wrong..but since its over i dun wish to ponder over it animore.The moment i handed it in i felt a relieve..it juz seem as tho a part of me is freed so i was super happi..went ard smilin to everyone i see..they all tot ill do damn well but tts not the case ba..haha
yupz..den came home lo..ate maggie mee..den come online to update blog..listening to songs..my fav ones...XIAO HU DUI!! fang xin qu fei , dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui and nan de chi xin de peng you..haha..i love em lo..super meaningful and sad song. den oso got jay's xing qing! reminds me of shumei mandy and jia...den got oso my childhood memory song..yi ren you yi ge meng xiang..i love the mtv okie..
wana noe wad the mtv is like?? haha its this v young couple..a small boy and a small gal stead..qing mei zhu ma..den they wud alwayz meet to sit swing the guy push the gal tt kind...den one day the boy met another gal..started seeing her..
the gal found out abt it so arranged to meet the boy at a restaurant to 'breakup'
den they appear to b so heartbroken and sad..den e gal took out her ring supposedli the guy gave de la..and put inside the wine glass and left.the boy then spend the rest of the time staring at the ring in the water and cry..
how sad rite??? as if they noe wads love lo..at tt age haha but i still loved the mtv..i think its so...hmm..haha..i like it la..
yupz..gonna go study and mug for phys le..altho no matter how much i mug oso no use de..but im not giving up! at least i put in the effort to study and prepare for the worst paper in mjc! hahaha
okie see ya guys! off to find the mtv see if online can dl not..i realli miss it..if i hab it le ill show u all..nice okie..haha
this wkend is a absolute bore..exams fill my head im damn scared but i dunno anithing! shit lo..i hate this feeling haiz..
yupz aniwae last nite went to east coast those seafood restaurant for dinner..not bad lo...we went for a stroll ard the beach after dinner with aiai..she is so cute so happi walk and play till she pengz and lay flat on the street haha..but of cox in the end i carry her hug her kiss her go home haha..i love aiai
hmm yupz..den this morn did nth but to go changi village there eat breakfast den come home..i watched huan zhu gege! haha lame lo! nth better to do le..hahaha all the scenes so farni..'pls stay for my sake...' blablabla all those crap haha lame! but still i watched it..more lame rite? den i slpt lo..a while..now no mood to do ani math...how?? die le..i feel like dying but exams will pass super fast de..a few days more and we're free...
haha after promos i wana eat cheesecake!! wana buy my clinque stuffs wana go watch all the movies! wana shop!! alwayz available manz! haha...who wan jio me out?? haha im cold today..sianz la..exam sucks..aniway...im off to stare at math le..bye!
today had gp exam! im super scared lo..erm paper 1 i did qn 1 which says the success of a nation depends on the success of its education system..it is fair a comment...haha i wrote expository lo...pple say its arguementative..but wadeva la..paper 2 is crap..abt arts..graffiti haha i did one b4 for this blog eh? frm stephies webbie de..haha when i got the paper i laffed..
yupz then tts e end of paper for gp..its set.already. den me steph and rice went to tm..wanted to meet jia de..but jia in the end not free so forget it..we went to tm saw SO mani pple..and im damn happi..feel as tho exams are over.let me list who i saw..joosheng ys roger nelson melvin kahjun vinson chongkiat timothy and gang..den saw vanessa huiting.den ben niao meisi (oops!) haha den saw longdi shiyun chuanwei den some tpjc pple like huimin SNG! weixian and gang..haha weixian's hair suck man..yupz saw so mani pple..i tot i saw tsy too but not lo..sadz..
went ard to see wad we wanna eat but in the end ended up at pizzahut and spent so much haha..damn full lo..piggy me..getting fatter each day
den after eating rice went home and steph pei me go see doc to get a MC..lame lo..the clinic damn ap de.not gonna go there animore..it cost me $23..heart damn pain..so ex..i no money to shop liao la..who wan to support me?? haha..yupz aniwae the doc touched me lo..she removed my buttons..but luckili its a she la haha..ap like hell ar her..
okie den we left the clinic i pei stephie go mini toons buy comb den went 77th street see caps..i feel like buying one.but no money no nothing..no looks to wear a cap too..oh ya! when we were leaving we saw mr se and ms poh and tt cosmetic tcher haha at pasta mania..i saw em first den din noe to smile or wad so i looked away after seeing a while..steph gave em a spastic smile like (hey u ya rite im shoppin cannot isit?) hahaha
stephie and me toked lo..abt frenz abt relationships.we toked abt jem and bryan..toked abt how we feel now..seems dead.damn used to life now..losing frenz losin pple close to u..i was once such a tolerant gal..now i hope im still one haha..haiz..but tolerant oso like tt..not tolerant oso like tt..who can stand e sight of me..so sucki
ya..den i took 21 home lo..listened to music as i was walkin home..almost got knocked down by a car...i was thinking abt wad stephie told me abt..abt some feelings tt i hab for someone oso..(haha u guys noe who la)..den i was in a total daze staring at the road while walkin lo..den blasting my music when it was playing the evonne's qi yue qi ri qing..den at the junction where there was a loop, a car juz went past me missing me by a few tiny centimetres haha..lame rite? why din he knock me over? haha..but oso wun die for 4get it..
yupz tts almost all from this morn till now..today is my mama bdae lo..so at nite we're going out for dinner and i think wud b abalone which i dun like..duno wad im gonna eat later..yupz aniwae dad is flying off to work in indonesia tml..im worried..
yupz tts abt all eh? see ya
this morn went to sch..e first thing i saw when i dropped down frm the car was pauline choy cumin out of the taxi in front of me..haha shocked manz..i act 'blur' and kept lookin into the car as tho there was aiai..when aiai is at home haha!aniway..she stared at me..den after she was gone i said 'bitch' to myself..haha
ya den assembly ms tan came to kp me lor..for not having mc..she is such a stick in the mud.well aniway she wans me to get a letter frm doc to say my condition wad shit lo..i nv even see doc..she think i got lots time but aiya..so take la..juz in case
den nothing much happened..but i was realli touched by smthing!!!! jiayi lo..who else haha..she sms me...den i tot how come outta sudden she sms me lo..den she said she wana meet me cox she wanna pass me the bird's nest her dad bought for her wo...she say i exam muz take tonic..how swt is she manz..i love her..haha how lucki i am to hab her as my best fren.its not the bird nest thing but she cares!!
how long has it been since someone cared so much for me eh? haha...yupz..aniwae wanted to meet today but a bit mafan cox i left everything to study at home.gave stephie my hse keys to come over and help me bring my stuff as i attend gp..but in the end we postponed the meeting to tml after gp!! so they can pei me go take mc oso hahahha
aniway..im damn scared now..gp..math phys..theyre driving me crazy..
hmmm felt the stress this morn..noe wad mama did?? she in the car complained to me tt my meimei's english is ONLY 70..biology is ONLY 63 and her class position is 27th or smthing like tt..den she commented tt my meimei isnt clever enuf.den i asked her not to compare meimei's results with others cox she is gd enuf...she said she nv compare already..if wana compare where would i stand..haha..get wad she meanz?
but used to it la..they alwayz comment tt im useless im stupid..when i said i wana b doctor when my godma passed away they laffed..now dun even dare tell em i wana b air stewardess...haha wonder wad they wud say of me..
sianz la...let her say wad she wana say.hmmm mama juz came home..haha she bought me swt potato soup! cold de..i cant take much cold de wo..but nvm!! i forgive her for all she said..haha miss ya guyz!
hey..in the end i din go to sch to meet them la..galz all go home onli left vanessa and huiting to study..so paiseh..few galz with a whole bunch of guys.altho close to vic paulus they all la..but still im paiseh to b with guys.like so weird.
hmmm whole day din do much lor..did phys tys read up econs.and now im doing math.quite disappointed with myself now.ive lost all motivation to study like i was in sec sch...how did this happen?
as i rem..the sec 4 me wasnt a failure like this..and now..haha i am dreamin of attaining 2 a lvl pass and 1 ao lvl pass..my block test results is like..math AO phys F econz AO..den midyrs math F phys AO econs AO..so my math and phys is the same..how to attain 2 A pass? shit it la..damn pekcek now..my mind isnt clear..cant concentrate.i have a lot in mind..but i guess at this pt of time..no pt complaining too..everyone feels the same..esp in mjc..i dun noe if i made the right choice to insist in going to mj instead of tpjc now. results realli sucki..wadeva it is..im already in mjc so i muz stay on lo..
i hope everything ends soon..and i dunwan to noe the results! pls..haha shd i do the same as i did for gp during the midyrs? take back and dun even look at the results.go back to sit den found out tt i passed it..haha..damn tyco..but im a sway person..wun alwayz b so lucki eh..
feel damn demoralised now..but aniwae..after promos im gonna play hard till i drop..till results come back i sure cry de..haha anione wana lend me shoulders? haha nahz im so sucki..dirty ur clothes onli..
damn down now..hope ill get over this shit soon..and i hope all of us can pass promos..i dun ask for much..i juz dunwan to lose my frenz.dunwan to see anione kena kicked..including myself lo..cox i have no other place to go..poly seem intimidating for an anti social person like me..its too big and unfeeling..and i doubt poly has ani space for a sucki person like me...and i certainli hope tt all the polys in singapore doesnt hab space to accomodate ani one of the nice and special youS
haha crap too much le..i gonna go back to puke at those bks and notes tt are spreaded all over my rm..on the bed on the tables wadeva..hope i wun fall aslp..haha...nitez!
yo!! haha it 12 plus now! and im at home! din go to sch today..study at home better..i now v scared lo..so muz bia at home..the sch called earli in the morn to ask if im sick..mum lied to em for me...but i got a scolding frm her tho..aiyah heck care lo..i stay at home not to slack oso ma..is realli study.i woke up at ard 9 and fell back aslp to 10 while readin gp notes.but since 10 ive been readin econs till now lo..den wana rest for a while den go back to study physics..my brain feel so full now..so heavy haha..my head hurts man..
but aniwae ard 2 plus i shd prepare to go to sch le..wana go back and study with the class.mama scolded me for tt again..but cox got ms lim la..she can teach me phys..better den me staying and rot without ani help rite?actualli was tempted to go sch today de..cox mama think she got problem! haha dad is travellin again..and she dun like it..so i bcum her chu qi tong again lo..see her i oso sianz..haiz...but nv go la..cox got a more disgusting creature keepin me away frm sch...pauline choy! puke! haha
think of her i goosebump oso la..biantai de..v sianz..and smthing..yday i went to slp ard 1am..den when i tucked into bed..mama snore sooo loud..den i ended up having the radio on till this morn.hahaha..i fell aslp tho..haha
yupz..nth to say liaoz...later when i come back frm sch study den come update ba..
u guys muz jiayou oso okie? whoever is readin this..jiayou!! dun give up hope.muz study!! dun stay online too long wo! i miss u guys..love ya!
hmmm boring...came home earli tonite at ard 3..ate maggie mee. v long nv eat tt kind e..ever since jiayi told me the mee goreng v nice i nv eat others liao..haha.sianz sianz dunno wad to write here lo..
hmmm juz wana say...im lost now lo..short term goal is promos..long term?? i dun dare to think..haiz...will everything stay the same??feel like crying..but i wana b strong..dunwan cry..no reason to cry for eh? juz being crazy...
ya..i was asking steph..cox bryan will b cuming back..for 3 yrs...he isnt in contact with anione..not even eugene..shd i meet him?? she says no..i am not sure of it either..i hab no more feelings for him la..no regrets no nth..jeff asked me tt day too..but i realli feel nth..i did it! haha...ill leave it la..he wan contact me jiu contact dunwan i oso dun care.let him do wad he wans.i cant b his aussie gal aniwae..who wans it haha..bleah!
aiyah im crappin now..sianz la..go liao