[me]
*melyl*
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* tennis
* animal planet at home
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haha mornin..changed the format of the blog haha..ys said its not gd.haha..so gonna listen to my brother..shd i change the url? haha now startin to think tt its too open..haha i wunno who others in this world is readin my stupid entries haha.kz.nth to say le.haha go do hsework bath aiai and watch cartoon.haha dunno wad princess bcum swan under a spell den the prince hab to tell the whole world...haha and make a vow of everlasting love...wad crap man!! haha aiya but quite nice oso..haha i can say them bullshit haha okie bye hahaha
haha time to change my taste for music..tml ish last day of 2003..going on to 2004! hopefulli 2004 is nice!! hope its a wonderful yr..without much worries~! how am i gonna spend it?? haha i dunno..got several options...go dinner at tsy workplace there..den meet cyn and weelie to chiong on dbo?v longz nv chiong liao le..and nv chiong with cyn and weelie b4...shd i go?? hahah hope can let the music there..make me feel happi!! and the drinks...vodka all the way~v long nv drink too..hope can drink once like...keep on de?den after leaving dbo can ask em pei me drink even more?? like sit at boat quay there and drink tiger beer? haha me drink tiger beer?? quite funy
another option...to go out with my beloved darling jiayi~! hahaha soo sooo long nv see her..i promise ill b fine and happiz...cox i am~..my best best fren is finalli back in town~! go out with her dun go countdown oso nvm de..juz go walk ard..~! oso not a bad idea..
or stephie they all le? ya quite a lot options..tml will b the last day ill b going out...like..openli? haha and late!! told mama ill b late late liao le..so..who wana jio me out??? last time le!! hahahaha altho its not the last time for jiayii darlin..stephie and rice dears~! hahaha cox we 4 will alwayz b as one!! if till tml noon like tt still noone jio me..den ill jio cyn~ haha...i need ic..cox i wana drink..wad is chionging without drinkin..i cant dance..i suck at it~!
hey~!~! finalli for the first time in days..im feelin happi...dunno why but kinda relieved...at least i wun anihow think le..thkz steph...thkz jia..thkz jiejie..i noe i shd treasure mama papa u and meimei and our dear aiai too le~! i will de...part of my new yr resolution..
altho my prob is confusing and weird..haha but at least the truth is light now...and i can stop my cryings cox of anihow think le....i shd stop crying and grow up!! haha shutup...dun noe wad the fuck i ya...jia called me~! yeah man today is kinda great..altho still cant let go of the prob..but respect~! he happi jiu hao le..hey rice..din tell u wad happened cox uve been bz with band..i dunwan hold u down...sch reopen will update u de~! love u!!
what is ur regret in life?
for the 17 to almost 18 yrs of my life tt ive been thru..i noe my regrets. my godpa told me..live ur life without regrets. trust HIM for all ur troubles and He will guide u thru it.godpa said..everyone has regrets in their lives..who doesnt..but it is the way u treat ur regrets..whether u make it as a better person or someone who doesnt treasure..once uve lost the opportunity..it will b gone forever..
the moment b4 u die,flashes of ur life will appear b4 u.isnt it the moment tt mani of us wants? to go back to the past..that is the time to go back..to the time u are bornt.flashes of ur mum dad and family hugging u..the joy of u joinin the family..and for my case its my godma godpa...to the first day of kindergarten..ur first fren..first day in pri sch..ur best pals who said will b 'frenz forever' whom u dun even noe of their whereabouts now..to the first graduation..to a brand new sch..to ur first crushes..first love..first hugs..first kisses...and first heartbroken..and it goes on..ur work..and e witness of those whom u love leave u or pass away..those hurts as u experience as u grow..so on...till the moment of death meets u..the flashes are short..but ur life is repeated b4 u..
my greatest regret till now is tt ive failed to let my godma noe how much i love her..all the way to her deathbed..she has nv heard me call her godma.its onli till the moment the doctor pronounced her dead at 840pm 26th sept 1997 tt i called her godma for the first time.but its too late..she couldnt hear me and she cudnt smile to me for tt..
life is short..but i noe godma's life is a wonderful one..she has so mani pple to love her..esp my godpa..who loves her still as much now...its been 6 yrs..tts called love forever..?
life is full of misery..whats its significance?to go thru it to noe love? love for family frenz and the 'one' person uve been lookin for? i dunwan to hab animore regrets..but im not perfect at all..far frm it..i wan the moment b4 i die to b a happi one..i wana smile when my soul leaves my body to go in search for the one who loves me most..godma..to call her godma b4 her..
im selfish..why am i saying these? probably i wish something cud happen to me...be it gd or bad..i dun mind..as wad steph suggests..a coma or a loss of memory..wudnt tt b gd? at least i wud noe...of my worth to some pple..who 'cares' for me and 'loves' me.ive lost it all...all my confidence and worth..i dunno if u realli care and love me..i wish and i wish tt i noe the ans...i dunwan to continue cryin alone in the dark and b hurt..
im reliant on my blog now..to say such things..cox there is no other way for me to tok like this..im v insecured...tt is wad i wana say..i hab nv felt as insecured b4 in my life...
haha wonder who will read this..grrrr...im tired..steph...ya..haha..
gonna go do hsework liaoz~! fold clothes wash kitchen clear fridge clean cabinets.pack rm mop flr blabla...eh steph~! noe of a way to get into the state tt u wana liaoz..rem the state u wan? the one u told me at macs ynite..coma..haha..come my hse if u wana~! clean the window and hahaha...shut up...i mean me..shutup..haha
ya...steph and to ur prob..i dun think it matters..let pple think wad they wan..u noe exactly its pure frenship its enuf..realli enuf..wadeva they wana say its cox they..same as me..dun believe in tt..u understand wad im saying?they havent grow up yet..juz like me..but im growing up soon haha...
juz got home...hugged my aiai and came online to update blog..its like e onli thing to note down my days..but too bad i cant say how i feel here..
more imptli..wana say congrats to my beloved rice!! it was a nice performance~! i caught everypart of u playing those things~ hahahaha frm big big to smallsmall...hardli took my eyes off u even if i cud onli see ur legs haha.
nice shot rice~! hope u like the present i gave u..its poorly wrapped up tho..it feels wonderful to see rice..and steph..after quite long..
ya me mel steph and alex sat together for the concert..not badz...ya
den after the concert onli mel left..and alex wanted to go home..so me and steph went to tm macs i pei her she eat lo
we toked...ya jia u shd noe wad we toked abt..ya..came home alone..aiya...nth to say nowz...jia.im still the same old me..haiz..
oh ya i saw prisc...at vch when we were leaving...erm this is the cchsm prisc...ducklips..i say her ys come to ask me go away...wadeva..im still irritating and bitchy as ever..she has her edmund and i hab steph..wad the fuck..wadeva..i dun like means i dun like..im a bitch so wad for ask me to change myself? ive lost myself too...i dunno who meiyi is le..
mani things hab changed...so hab i...
spent an hr plus to groom my little gal at home..shew..haha bathed her...cut her hair..i look like a pro while trimmin her hair..pro mushroom hair stylist~! ya...cut her hair ard her face ears chin blablabla..den bathed her..realised something....when aiai's head is wet which means the fur are wet..her head is super small!! u noe the old changkee sesame ball?? the one tt alvin likes to eat..think even tt sesame ball is bigger den my gal's head..hahaha damn cute man..
den when i finished bathing her..covered her in her towel..she has 3~! den she shivered...she look like vulnerable..ya..den i blow her dry lo..her fur looks kinda dry so i used baby olive oil to make em better..at least give it a shine..ya..den comb her till damn nice..and finish everything up with my perfume!! to give her a nice smell..estee lauder~! hahaha even my dog smells nice and smell expensive! so proud of her...wonderful little baby..
now ive done all i need to do...hsework and stuffs...gonna rot a while den go prepare to meet melvin to go sch concert le..wonder how rice feels now haha..hope tonight is a success...
stayed at home the whole day today...was supposed to have dinner with our family lawyer..but he din call in the end so we decided to go shoppin...my jiejie wasnt with us cox its her 3mths anniversary with her bf so they went off to hab buffet dinner mayb at wadeva hotel...rich pple..ya..
we went to j8....brought my parents ard and i actualli was the road directory for my dad!! omg...a road idiot directing my super clever dad..not bad eh??
ya..brought em ard for a whilewhile den i saw someone....we were at u2..den cox i was carrying aiai and the sales pple see her like see swt like tt..all stick to me..den i headed for the entrance of the shop wanted to go out..den in front of me was this gal who looked familiar..she was juz right in front of me but facing sideways to her fren...ya den i shocked..cox i realised she was priscilla..haha..wanted to say hi to her..but dun think she recognises me or wad lo..i opened my mouth but nth came out..den she walked away with her fren..i think to eat or smthing..ya..
den i peied my family walk ard..den we went to seiyu where my dad saw goldlion buttoned long sleeves!! jia!!! can u believe it?? my dad is starting to wear those liao!!! so cute man...i helped him chooose colour den see size..he is size 16! can cover his bigbig tummy..den he so happi lo..he bought 2! one 62.60 and another one 70 over..v nice! ya..was kinda sad again but family warmth! was nice..for so long we were not tt close..ya..den its like damn cute lo...meimei bought a pair of jeans...size 27..can u believe it?? im juz a little bigger den her le..pls lo..im so fat and she is so skinny..ya..den mama bought a top...i chose some tops for her..see le quite nice but wear liao not nice so she nv buy lo..
i bought some muji stuffs to get ready for sch..not bad la..today go out with em quite happi..but smthing was on my mind la..i chose to ignore it..cox i noe its extra tots onli..
ya den we went for dinner..at the coffee shop opposite j8...actualli went to the one above the bus interchange den we went up and..eh no pple eat de..sure v erxin haha so we went to the other one..shared a hokkien mee with dad cox i had no appetite at all..ate a bit..
den we came home..my ai is damn cute and i love her..i shd spend more time with her..
ive been trying hardz..to use cynthia as a kind of example to make myself feel better..i noe its like using her...but i told her tt..i dunwan to live in misery all the while and keep thinking of stupid stuffs tt doesnt exist at all..
was in the car and when im alone esp on car and on train..i tend to think a lot...i used to cry when dad sent sis back to nus and pass thru the suntec expressway cox i tot of things..tt road goes to st teresa church too..ya..den i was like starting to anihow think again..den i heard the song...by micheal learns to rock..slping child..this song is wonderful..my pri sch times alwayz hear de..the lyrics seem so innocent and ignorant of the real and wild world..surrounded by love frm parents family frenz..ya...den i chose to listen hard to the song instead of letting my tots fly and hurt my heart again
but nevertheless...i think ive lost it again...my confidence my trust my faith and everything abt myself..ya...dun ask me why...i...juz feel empty and lost my everything...abt myself..
went out today..with melvin..to walk ard and to watch the movie di xia tie..met him at 2 at tamp den went to lido to get tickets den we walked to taka for lunch den walked to ps to rot den walked back to lido to eat macs and den go watch movie den go home..
haha was at macs..den ate 6 pieces of mcnuggets for dinner plus a cup of milo ya den saw this person who was eating mcchicky!!den i was like...eh mac got mcchicky!! haha den rem the times when me steph rice jia clar qi all thurs go eat Mcchicky together at whitesands!! haha
miss our old dayz lo~! lets gather together for mcchicky someday!altho will fat..but its gd to feel like those days again right??
ya...i went to wisma ebase to see cynthia today...and i saw her..smilin at least...mayb she's workin..but at least she smiles...
yday pei her go pierce earhole..she damn daring..cox she juz broke up with her bf..whom she still loves but insist on breakin up bcox she dun think tt he is the one for her...she looks into the future..altho she loves him..but he is an ITE student..who cannot provide for her..who breaks his promises to her due to work and study..someone who even asks her for money..cyn has grown up...glad..
cyn wanted to pierce and she did...a sudden decision..she smiles when the person pierced it into her ear..i was at the side..scareded...but she told me one thing..smiling again...tt the pain at her ear for tt is nth compared to e one in her heart
compared to cynthia i seem so small..so minute..not size wise but in our thinking..she has been thru so much more den me...family career study everything..while im still a young ignorant gal who has nv seen the real world b4 and nv got much setbacks..she makes me feel tt im xinfu...with a great family..superb frenz and a wonderful dear..wad else do i wan?
im juz thinkin too much and asking for too much lo! feel v ashamed of myself...everytime do stupid things liao den say sorry..wads the use right??? tts y got a set of new yr resolutions for myself to change....change to b a better family member..a better daughter better sister..a better pal better fren and also and more imptly a better gf! no longer wana b a bitch..stop bitching ard..haha ya..like tt lo..worked out a whole list of new yr resolutions...who wana noe? haha post here like a bit too open..who wana noe juz ask me la..haha ez..
slpt at 3 plus 4 am ynite..listened to 36 songs and toked to steph on the phone over some things...lame de la..hor steph haha..slap! ya...den woke to go out for breakfast with mama jiejie and meimei and my dear aiai...den i went off to take train to ps myself..was all alone in ps..but din feel sianz at all..den cynthia came at 4pm to meet me!! haha she so pretty lo~! den i called weelie along too cox cynthia tot it was too boring for 2 of us to rot ard since juon din hab a gd timing...ya..den we went to MDIS to find out more abt the business course tt she wants..she din study liao..after o's she onli passed 3 subx..den we toked a lot..abt our past and present..and wads for us in the future..we realli dunno..weelie and i hate jc like while cyn is tired of workin and wana study...haiz life is juz contradicting eh?
oh ya cynthia went to pierce her ear..which is scary..she is not wad i think she is animore..all of us hab grown up..no longer those xiao lianz ard in arcades and those shit..quite comforted when i saw tt we've changed..she works well and scrimps and saves for her education..im glad..we went far east and juz abt to sit down at the bench there to wait for weelie..i suddenli juz turned and looked out of the glass onli i saw melvin lo...dunno wads tt supposed to mean..zun??ya den ran out to say hi and bye lo..
den we went mos to tok...me weelie and cyn...he wana b pilot while me and cyn wana b air stewardess..ya den quite wenxin la..we joked and played..den they went to bugis for movie and i went home alone..
on those times tt i was on train..be it to ps or go home..i heard a lot of sad songs..jolin's ni hai ai wo ma..blablabla..den hor..haha cynthia juz broked with her bf..she toked to me abt it..brought my spirits down..all the way..since i was already sadz..haha
but now after toking to pple abt it..my closest pals..im better la..got a conclusion liao...ya...like tt lo...meimei wan use net le..to play neopets..i go liao...tok abt it again when i got the chance..bye
my pri sch best fren cynthia contacted me..she asked me out tml for a movie...juon..hmmm...im happi!! well..at least a diff feelin frm this morn? altho i aint smilin now..
its nice to noe tt she still remembers me and wana jio me out..its been some time since we last were together...i rem it was luigi's farewell bbq tt i organised..she went for a while..a few days later nancy went for a backbone operation..and we arranged to meet to go visit nancy at the hospital..tt was the last time we were together out....saw her workin at ebase cs too..kinda missed our old times back in damai..those days....me cynthia melanie michelle lim michelle ng nancy luigi weelie brandon and all the malayz...playing soccer every recess at our 'area' after havin our food...which is alwayz the green plate malay stall..brings back a lot memories..and i miss em lotz
as compared to life now...those days were so carefree and studies were so easy..no need study oso can easily b in the top 10 places in class tt kind..den now..study like hell oso last in class..wad the fuck
now..i no longer am tt naive..tt innocent and tt carefree to play..in fact im scared now..of new things..after being exposed to all these stuffs over the yrs..those experiences of being bad and gd...ive changed..so has everyone..wonder if we can return to the past..pri 6...will we still enjoy our soccer sessions??now tt several of us are in poly jc overseas or even workin...im sad..
yrs after...cchsm pals will b like this too?wad abt jc pals?haiz.....10 yrs down the rd and we might not even recognise each other when we pass by..this is life...pple come and go...everyone changes and so do i..so wad complaints do i hab?haha wad crap am i toking abt..wadeva..
and i juz heard the song AN JING by jay...rice..u rem the time when there was this..i think its the day olvl results are out..in the hall or smthing..not sure liao..we heard this song?? den u me and alvin were saying it will make us cry...
haha but im strong!! i nv cry..the song doesnt apply to me lo! haha...but juz now i heard too...amazing grace....which was the song we had to sing when my godma passed away..at her wake..
dunno how im feelin now..after readin something...ya...steph u noe right? haha how u think i shd feel eh??am i realli thinking too much?? messed up and feelin useless now..
i juz hope sch reopens real soon..den ill b able to concentrate well on an area..study...n i wun spend tt much...and can jianfei and save for my digital cam..i realli like the cam lo..
ya and when sch reopens..i wudnt hab tt much free time to anihow think and think too much like wad im doin now..ya..haiyah wadeva la..crazy entry...wonder who will read this shit manz.haha...
hey~! haha juz bathed..think parents wana bring us out...to parkway for dinner? not sure..haha we wana go parkway cox go donate the stuffs tt we've packed..so i came online for a while to update stuffs..im juz tooo tooo tooo bored eh? watched fear factor for duno how mani hours...spent my time! haha and i got scared the hell out of me...wad eat bulls dunno wad..den eat live roach..yucks!!! i cried at tt scene manz..haha going out liaoz...change~! dunno wad to wear sianz....suck..haha
hab been out these few days for the xmas sake..tues went out with melvin to cityhall to buy stuffs..gifts for my family and my best frenz..ya...quite fun lo..spent lots too...
den yday xmas eve....spent it oso..nice day out..went to orchard den to thomson wanted to get the strawberry bone for my little gal at home..but dunhab..den went to suntec for dinner at the jap restaurant..tonkichi..quite nice but was pissed la..ya the couple who sat bside us quarrel..den the other couple.i dunno le..got the feelin tt e gal is a prost..wadeva la..who am i to say others..shut up! ya den juz wokie going to eat at market again ba..fruitful days spent...ya..and i got things sorted out..im gonna buy myself a digital camera on my bdae..since ive sacrificed my xmas presssie tt i wana buy ya..muz save lo..can shun bian jian fei oso...
saw a guess handbag so nice..80 bucks..but i no money to afford such things...actualli..such expensive things doesnt come with me..i juz suck too much to use those things..haha siaoz..dreamin..yapz..go le...bye
today's a stupid happening day for me..as i did something tt ive nv done in my entire life!
let me start...morn i woke up rather earli to make tangyuan for the family la..den ate lunch...den hor..sis kicked a fuss sayin tt i threw her digital camera's charger as i packed the house! den mama said this morn the cleaner took the adidas bag inside to throw it away downstairs..so i chiong downstairs to find the cleaner and went into the rubbish chute to find lo!!! wad the hell!! siaoz..den stayed there for quite some time lookin...somemore it rained...how pathetic tt was..ya den i came home and sister told me she searched online and the charger is 70 bucks..so i tot well mayb ill pay for tt lo..since its my fault..den finalli she found it in the cupboard..its not she keep de..and i dun rem myself keepin tt charger for her too..mama says its not her who can it be?? wadeva la right...
ya den mama stupid stupid go put her hp in the plastic bag tt has our food..den it got soaked and spoilt! luckili we got extra 3310 to change for her..den she kpkb ask me change back for her..which is oso a 3310..den i told her its the same she dun believe me..spoil liao how to use? stupid man..
ya..den i started callin aiai...noone came to me!! realised tt she was lost..so i chiong outside to find her..found her near the lift..wanted to scold her de..but realised it aint her fault cox she wana bianbian so she go out de lo...instead i sayang her..
ya..den me mama and meimei go orchard..brought them to fareast see see lo..they nv go b4 lo..den i saw yumin saw the mjc tcher mengmeng saw steph's ex jeremy...den i sian diao...jeremy...but i smiled and tok to him la...well its all in the past liao lo...steph and him already frenz le..but i juz cant forget tt shit..wad he did..u noe..ya stephie..haha everything's he's done..esp when we were sec 3 4 tt time..u noe wad i mean?? ya..haha
den we went to tm to meet sis and her bf for dinner..wanted to eat at cafe cartel de....but hor! got aiai den we werent allowed to eat there so we went to genki sushi and smuggled aiai in as usual..my baby is so the guai lo..den i ate sashimi! not bad manz!! quite nice! haha but i put too little wabsabi cox i scared hot den in the end its too rawish..haha
ya..den juz came home lo..update my blog and ill go bath le..missing melvin now..2 days nv see him haha but he hapi jiu hao lo..hope he enjoys himself! and i miss jiayi too!!! jiajiajiajiajiajia!!! miss u lots!
juz came home from parkway..a parkway trip with papa mama meimei and aiai lo..went there and bought some pills for aiai...to make her odour go away de..ya...quite sad today..
been like this the whole day...oso dunno why...how to say...today actualli going to orchard to shop ard pei mama and meimei de.but in the end mama ps us go safra play her jackpot stuff..den i packed my rm instead..all the clothes computer and stuffs..den think too much dust or wad..had runny nose and damn cold..my sister flu den she wrapped herself in sweater and kimono..haha like ghost like tt..i dunwan wear so i tahan lo..moved things..went to storerm climbed up and moved the box up so as to make space for the computer..and i think i hurt my back again...so i asked my meimei to help me move the com up lo...i got a bit of sense of achievement cox i unplugged the big com myself! with all the weird wires..haha a com and wire idiot like me..suck totalli..
ya like tt lo..den bathed and go parkway..on the way its like..cox the route is same as going to cchsm..den i got the miss cchsm feelin...miss jia! shumei mandy 4gr 2hm..tsy dardar dawn ann..i went parkway to see if dawn was workin too..but din see her..ya..den i tot of all the stuffs lo..like in cchsm..those days...i rem the romeo and juliet stuff...i rem the old blk..and a lot of things..den the radio was playing all sorts of sad songs..like marathon like tt..it set me off to thinking more..
tot of melvin too!! hope he is feelin okie..
v messy now and mama juz scolded me again..not scold lo..its her fault...i packed my rm all okie liao she keep opening my 'wana throw' stuffs and say this dun throw tt dun throw..i dunwan liao lo! den she took sis things and put in my cupboard..i told her the cupboard is mine liao she screamed at me..wadeva la..bye
back! bored like hell..these few days rather fine!! keep meeting melvin!!
hmmm yday i met him 2pm at the tampines mrt station busstop to take 27 to go to compass pt! haha...we at tm cs till rot n sianz liao so we went compass pt lo..den ate n walked ard..den he sent me home cox me at night got dinner with relatives lo..den he go meet his fren play pool..yapz..quite fun day out with him!
den at night i went for tt dinner la..see all my cousins blablabla..den was saying when my cousin gives birth i will b biao yi liao le!! i sound so old right?? wa lao..den toked lo..some say i slim down..some say i v fat ugly..wadeva la..haha i oso dun care..
ya..melvin actualli wanted to go find me de..cox he noes where i am la..den in the end nv cox rainin and we were leaving liao.
now sunday..raining..rainy days bring me to sadness...and i had a dream tt i dunwan to hab..i dreamt of tt same person 2 times le..why?? it kinda sets me off into deep tots again..rather messed up loz..wonder wads for me in the days to come..weeks and mths to come..hopefulli i can get an idea of it real soon..i oso dunno wad im toking abt la..haha siaoz..rainy day blue..gotta go pack my clothes and cook for my precious le..
hey pple..i no mood to update le..actualli was so happi de..had a great day out with melvin!!..everything was so nice..i has my haircut..not too bad..not much diff actualli..den now went check the bloody shitty SAT results..i got 1040..haha 620 for math and 420 for verbal..wad the fuck..wadeva la..go to hell SAT...go liao bye
aiyah wadeva dunno how to use the blog thing..haha shit manz..stupid me..i went to steph site and did this stupid test on wad kind of girlfriend are u la..nth to do now ma..den got that stupid result...they ask me to cnp the thing..but my sis com i dunno how to use den bcum like tt...lame right?? grrr...but nvm haha..yapz aniway tt result shd b stupid and lame..i aint a gd gf..so i shd b cheating ba haha perfect my foot..siaoz haha..see the qns oso turn off..but my dear is perfect! haha bleah!!
went out today...with melvin..to tm lo..yday oso went tm..with mum and meimei and i bought a mango top!! 19 bucks long sleeve de..quite nice..gd bargain i suppose..yapz haha
today met melvin!!! omg i damn happi lo..after 2 days without seeing him!! yapz we went to eat fishball mee den walked ard rot ard..wanted to watch movie de..but tm and cs all the show either we watch b4 or too erxin but coming up LOTR di xia tie blablabla all these i wan watch!! haha! yapz den went cafe cartel to eat lo..mel dinwan to eat but i forced him lo..cox i noe he wun eat de..he meetin his fren to watch LOTR lo..he so tired liao..still pei his fren and pei me..damn gd guy..wun ps pple..haha.he yday played tong xiao mahjong den left his fren hse go home change le jiu meet me le!! all the way at tampines somemore..how nice right??but can see he realli v tired..yapz
den we went to his class bbq at mrs quek's condo..not bad quite nice inside..we went a while he jiu send me home...and mama asked me buy a 10kg rice den mel helped me take till carpark! den i bring up myself..haha so nice of him right?? help me buy rice and take somemore! yapz den i came home lo..mama laffed at me for takin the rice..say i noe how she feels now..bleah! like i nv take b4 like tt..haha yapz back a bit pain dunno y..recentli start to ache a lot..i old liaoz! but if it persists...i promised mel i wud go see a doc de..by the end of this mth haha hopefulli its juz nth ba..~!
havent done anithing since i came home at ard 745...juz rotted ard and stole back 2 cardboards!! haha someone dumped them at the lift there..den we moving rm all these i need a big one to store the old com away in the storeroom! dad saw them came back and ask me go take..den i went to take lo..so godam paiseh!! hahaha i took and came home laughing..haha yapz..v happi now lo..altho its at home..but everything seems small now..no big probs! cox i juz saw my dear!!
oh ya...mel keep sayin i siaoz cox i damn ap and siaoz in front of him..but im realli happi la..haha ya..like tt lo...go bath liao bye!
okie gotta update again..haha i had my gdgd luck at mahjong!! went to play without ani money..first rd onli won like 5 bucks? haha yapz den like usual..i alwayz hab my beginners luck..be it at pool mahjong tennis or wadeva tt i play...den after tt lost a bit..den tire out..den i think in the end nv win nv lose lo..haha..i played till ard 1 plus den tired le..came online to pei my dear lo..
heyhey!! my room is done!! we shifted the furnitures!! and now i hab my own area!! and my own space at home!! hahaha damn happi i spent a few hrs to clean and pack the room...now half is done..the study is done!! see when i free ill pack my clothes and pack the old com away...pull away the com table now and im done!! buy a sofa bed..buy a new dressin table..mirror..and a locker! haha den i oso wana do a jigsaw puzzle glow in the dark kind to put up in the room..buy a lot candles to light..!!! haha now currentli ive got an area for my candles and godma..yapz! haha v nice i think...well i hope to borrow camera den take pic of my rm!! haha
mornin..im back and feelin much better..slpt at 3am last nite..after crying..haha lame me..siaoz..today eye sore lo..lucki got tinted specs den cannot realli see...who e hell in this hse will look at me close enuf to noe tt my eye is sore? hahaha morning 8am tt person came home and screamed for me..ask me help her take out peanuts and black beans frm the fridge and instruct me to do things like 11am den keep the fish cake in the fridge and stuffs..den tt person said..today a lot pple coming our hse..so all hsework muz muz muz b done..by who?? ME la! and who are the pple here for?? MAHJONG la! i hate this manz..but play with frenz and see godma play i v happi de le..dunno why they come my hse play i sian diao..mayb too noisy?? or they ask me do things? haha dunno la..or it cud b im juz prejudiced..wadeva la..
heyhey~!~! stayed at home today again~! haha okie first let me tok abt yday..i came online wanted the update blog de..but dunno why cock up den cant update..den today try can..yapz yday went out with sista steph and samanthia..i met steph at ard 1030 at tampines den went on mrt and sista got up at simei..den we went down at kembangan to wait for samanthia who was late den we went to ssc for pool!! hey i yday not bad le...on winnin streak..a pool idiot like me won them all..AT FIRST..haha later den i pahjiao le...all suay haha..yapz den alex chong yy and yc came along..den melvin came..
yo!! im back!! juz went out for the onli time today...went out for dinner with mama meimei and aiai at bedok central and walked ard..met jill and toked a bit...lynn was at guitar lesson so din see her..yapz..den came home and bath and now using the orange mask from hisamitsu my sis bought for me de..haha dunno how to use it anyhow paste on my face and dunno how long oso..haha juz took them out...got 1/2 hr liao ba..haha anithing la!tml gonna go out!! play pool with steph sista and samanthia! eh all starts with S eh? yapz den mayb most prob will see mel!! he going there with yy lo..hope he can go out..he poor thingy 2 days nv go out le..stay at home think he will b super sianz..go out at least he happier!! yapz..hee tml meeting steph 1020am at tampines control..v earli ar? but fun ba!
hey yo~! went out yday!! my first mth with melvin..yapz we met at tampines ard 1 plus 130 like tt den went ps there to eat..wad did we eat ar..yoshinoya! haha den watched movie rotted ard den went boat quay later in the evening..it felt like aS though it would rain ani sec...there was a slight little small drizzle but it was okie! we ate at a restaurant lo..called tokyo blablabla forgot haha..den there were 3 aunties toking in cantonese den the waitress oso tok to em tok sooo long lo!! haha i kpo go hear wad they say..the waitress treat them le!! to some appetisers or something..idiot right?? treat aunties nv treat me..canto i oso noe ma! somemore those aunties are malaysianz lo..hahaha
heyhey~! using sis's laptop again~ im getting used to this laptop liao..use liao not as kuku as ever hahaha
In all the world we shall not find
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend
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at |12/17/2003 09:26:00 PM|
yday 14th dec...i wanted to go buy tennis racket for my jiejie so mel pei me..cox he was going to pei his ma to get his things oso at raffles place..and moreover we gonna go my class chalet together ma..so i met him like 12 at cityhall..but he pei his mama a while longer..so i went walk ard..walked ard to see if there were ani nice cloth or stuffs to split my area and jiejie's area..otherwise we wud b studying facing each other! how to study? haha
den went to flash and splash and saw a swim suit damn nice! its black lo...den onli 59 bucks! wana buy de le..but refrained..thinking tt i shd buy tt near xmas for myself..haha mayb wana get one for jia oso..see how she thinks when she gets back ba..yapz den melvin ps his mama come find me..den we walked to suntec..went esprite but dunhab e top i wan..den went mango see a shorts i like..its 36 bucks..den i go try the pockets too disgusting so i forgo tt as well...den oso we went to why pay more to get e racket for jiejie..haha i made a fool of myself and melvin..i was choosin the best one and mel had to hold 4 rackets in his hands and me another 2 or 3..haha..lame me..yapz finalli we bought it and saw a puma top..i asked for the price but they took damn long to reply me den i nv buy oso! i saved abt 100 over for not buying esprite puma and swimsuit! hahahaha god bless me
den we went to the chalet at pasir ris..its damn cool lo..i tot is at e holiday camp but its not! its amongst the bungalows lo..its IDA i think..v v nice like a hse like tt..haha so nice manz..tot it wud b kinda of sianz..but it wasnt sian at all wo!!! nice class..i helped to cook and clean up lo..den mel was with ys they all whole nite play mahjong all these..i watched seven sisters..soccer alone and helped my class galz at mahjong..
den the farni and peak of the chalet is here..yuan lei pei us play mahjong..den we dared him..smthing like tt la..he win we pei him sing ktv he lose he sing a full song...den with the help of yc..he lost..den he sang...all out of love...love is all around..25 mins blablabla..he sang so much cox he cudnt finish an entire song..haha oh ya he sang jay songs too! melvin was like.....hahahah cox he loves jay den yuanlei sing till v cute lo..yuanlei was quite on yday..not bad ar! haha
yapz den we left at ard 11 with ys and nelson..oh ya! i found out tt genevieve came back liao..long ago..but i din noe..shdnt say much here haha
yapz den mel sent me home..but we walked the longer way and he onli sent me till near the carpark there and i go back myself cox scared to see my mama again.
den came home saw they all mahjong again..auntie saw me and said i getting prettier and slimmer..kinda happi but i think its bullshit..i got heavier mind u..haha..den came online to tok to mel after everyone slpt..till 4am lo..
today went out again to celebrate my 2 best frenz bdae..steph and rice! haha too bad my bestest fren jia cant b with us..
i met steph today at ard 130 in front of the shop we wana get rice pressie de to get her pressie lo...its a drum set..baby play those kind..i knew she wud like it..haha i choose de! steph's pressi tt bear oso i choose de! so proud of myself and super happi to see em like their pressie haha
yapz den we met rice and went cine to watch possessed..super not nice show lo i tell u..dun go watch! lame like hell...not in english de..some danish language?still got chup in romanian language lo.den after an hr den we noe wads the story abt...smthing related to satan de..yucks manz..go to hell satan..*scary!* juz as i typed go to hell satan...my sis com..this com im using got a sound..but is got email recieved la..but too much of an coincidence as i typed the second go to hell satan..her msn came up again..hmmmm better not think so much..im alone at home..my family went to ikea together..was supposed to meet em but i stupid dunno how to go
yapz continue eh...after the movie we went to heeren to meet chong and alex..den we saw choonguan fanny aijia doreen..den saw xavier and his stead.pretty manz! den saw daphne queenie and her gal.saw a lot pple lo..a lot cchs idiots oso..haha
den we went to cine again to pastamania eat cox the few of us were damn hungry...we lack of money la..den everything oso wan to save..wana buy lollipop to eat in cinema and one cost a dollar! wad the hell no money lo! haha
den we waited for sista and vic to join us and the 6 of us had dinner together..den we go ard walkin..tt time a bit bored..dunno wad to do and where to go..den we ended up at ssc which we din play pool at all...juz watched pple play and laugh..haha rice opened her pressie there and i saw her cute face! so happi to see her and steph smile!
yapz den ard 8 plus we went off lo..go home..haha and now juz reached home lo..sianz..alone alone alone...my dear watching movie with his frenz! hope he enjoys his day out well!! haha im gonna go bath go change den settle down to sew my xmas gift to him liao! my dearest frenz ill go buy xmas cards! no matter how broke i am..or ill do myself! more sincere rightz? haha
oh ya another thing to add on...i might b going to genting...my family and relatives wan go there..but i aint interested at all..now is already 15th le..they wan go 5 days..plan all these i think will go ard 20th to 30th 5 days during then..i dunwan lo! 24th or 25th when mel is free..i wan to spend my xmas with melvin..we've been toking abt it..and i wana spend time with him..after 25th soon will b the 29th and i wun wana miss out rice performance at VCH rightz...mj first concert..band and choir..
5 dayz..ill miss mel miss steph miss rice and miss my little aiai...but one thing is keepin me to the tot of going to msia...JIA! who else right? if i go i might get to see her..mayb i get out of genting to go over to her place in msia..i dun mind pei her teach her broda to study..can pei her at least..my poor bestest fren stuck there lo...so long nv see her oso..i go genting oso no use..so cold! my sweaters sure not enuf de..i can turn purple in mj lect theatre liao..wad if i go over to genting? die there? i dunwan to die there lo..haha
so im kinda of luan now..i dunno wad to do lo..ani suggestions?
haha woah wad a long entry..crazy me too bored at home eh..go liao...bath time! haha
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at |12/15/2003 10:20:00 PM|
yapz ive got lots of wants now...sofa bed locker candles digital cam..and i think ill need several yrs to get them all...haha lame me..so sadz..
and now..guess wad?? im being forced to play mahjong..cox there are 2 tables for mahjong and lack of one player..so im forced to play..the table im playing is we 3..sisters and our oldest cousin..weird right?? i dunno how to play...aiya anihow la..haha
yapz! shall update on my luck at mahjong ba..see ya!
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at |12/13/2003 09:27:00 PM|
yday me and mel went out!! hahaha to buy smthing impt! and to watch infernal affairs..yapz! haha we met at ard 120 at tampines! he come all the way here again juz to pei me take train back to city..we went to cityhall lo..of all places..cityhall dhoby ghaut somerset and orchard i chose cityhall hahaha and den we walked and walked..dunno wad to eat den we chose NYDC! haha went in and ordered our pasta! den we saw my beloved jiejie!! hahha she suddenli..CHEONG MEIYI..den i shocked.who in the hell will call me tt in NYDC? haha i turned ard to see...my jiejie!! haha mel was shocked cox he wasnt prepared to see her at all lo! yapz den sister bf came shortli..oso a bit shocked to see me..yapz..den we left separateli..soon after sister sms me say mango got 50% sales!!! haha den me and mel chiong down lo..so mani pple sia!! but jiejie bought a top for herself and bought me a christmas pressie..a red top...den i bought another brown top for myself and another green top for jiayi!! hahaha i tot of jiayi le!! stephie and rice dun wear such things de i think..no t shirts there haha..yapz
sister paid for me first cox i not enuf money loz..gotta pay her later.haha...den i tot of a brilliant idea!!! i noe exactli wad to buy for my jiejie liaoz!!!! after considering for soooo long..i dunno buy wad de..tot of jeweller sk2 all these..but think she hab all these liao and they din seem to b gd use..den i tot of tt!! haha gotta go buy tml or wad ba..scared the sales no more..i noe she will like it de..be it for her bdae or christmas ba..hahaha
yapz..yday damn suay for me and mel?? haha saw jiejie and tt person..think mel shocked like hell..haha but jiejie de is gd not bad..but tt person de is a disaster..i can predict tt tt person will say wad mel v rude nv say hi blablabla....u guys noe tt person right...see her face! who dares to say hi..wads more mel is so shy de..wana scare mel away ar...haha..but nvm la..let her do wadeva she wants to me..today sat..my rm havent revamp v v v v v v messy~! and mani pple coming so i can cope myself in the rm usin tt lame excuse..shut the door! hahaha
ya i wana say thkz to stephie jia and mel and my jiejie for listening to my complains yday...i a bit siaoz..or a lot alot of siaoz..but haha im feelin okie now le..thkz manz!
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at |12/13/2003 12:27:00 PM|
sista and melvin was in a team to play with alex and chongz..haha mel was so pro!! den of cox won tt ah gua team la! alex and chong are so ah gua-ish sia! wear same slippers haha AH GUA! yapz but nevertheless muz admit tt alex's pool is v gd liaoz compared to last time when he din even noe pool hahaha
yapz den after the match we went to ps foodcourt to eat cox v hungry lo! i pei mel to breadtalk buy bread..he cannot eat hard food..poor thing right! den i went to eat noodle lo..i dragged sista to eat too! cox he wanted to onli eat icecream..he siaoz! haha yapz den we went off...me and mel went bugis rot a while den he jiu send me home lo...
this morn waki hmmmm haha got woken up by my deardear jiayi!!!! she called me frm malaysia!! i was like sian diao at first who call me sia! den hello...its JIA!! den i woohoooo!! noe wad? i juz got the feelin tt jiayi v long nv call me liaoz yday le..den this morn she called me!! haha she asked me to help her call cchs abt her cert thingy...luckili things were gd..den she called me on my hse phone and we toked for a while!! cox mama ask me go work with her lo..den i sian diao cant tok to my jiayi for v v long like we used to lo..
but nvm! i noe how jia ish now..she is bored my dear...haha bcuming like auntie ar! juz like me!! haha...*eh u wan to study or not? u understand or not..* haha think onli jia will noe wad tt means?? haha and all the *poke* stuffs eh? haha feel so so so so relieved toking to jiayi!! altho v long nv contact much lo..but once in a while juz a little call and the feeling of closeness is back again!!! i love jiayi manz!! hahaha
yapz den i went to work for mama..sort letters under the sun lo...i was at the corridor packing letters...i felt weird k..i din used to feel like this b4 when i helped her durin my sec days..i feel so xiao jie now..i do things v slow now..dunno why..haha too pampered?? but im still pro and still useful to mama k..hahaha..den came home after tt and bathed aiai lo...i cut my little baby's fur!!! hahaha mushroom style again! wad else can i cut right..her hair so short lo...
ya~! i sat in the toilet put her on the chair and i juz cut cut cut!! felt like a pro lo! like those pro hairdresser frm wadeva toni and guy or smthing hahaha cool right?? my little baby is pretty!! haha of cox right..i dress her de..hahahaha yapz den now come online to update lo!
eh! v long hor?? haha jiayi!! dun sayi nv update le ar!! haha super long this one let u read!
aiya mama scold me again manz...she keep scoldin scoldin scoldin..i realli dun understand her juz as she doesnt understand me..wad do u guys think?? stephie mel and jia understands this most...its my moody and depression time at home again..everything i do is wrong wrong and total wrong..tts why i dunwan stay home! haha..but hor!! go out..go where?? hahaha
pls manz tml i seriousli hope someone will ask me out or wad? hahaha tml 12th dec liaoz!! infernal affairs 3!!
oh ya..stephie and rice's bdaes coming manz!!hahaha i got money!! yeah i noe wad to get exactli!! im so excited..hahaha
aiya...got a lot more to say but mama scold me again...gotta eat dinner den mop flr..as usual..i din do hsework today ma..go work with her till afternooon...den she not happi i nv do...later muz do liaoz..haiz....
i miss my jiayi!! i miss mel~!
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at |12/11/2003 06:54:00 PM|
mElyl frees a butterfly *
at |12/09/2003 10:04:00 PM|
yapz den melvin and i walked ard the fullerton hotel there and the bridge..so nice manz! den walked over to esplanade the rooftop there...nice scenery lo!! den we went home lo~! tts wad happened yesterday
today will b at home cox muz appease mama do housework and pack my room? haha my sis hab been askin me to do tt and...hahaha
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at |12/08/2003 10:29:00 AM|
yapz today went to sch earli in the morn for SAT! finalli the stupid paper is over...i did...den the verbal part all sian diao...can onli depend on my math to score..hope to score 1300 juz like stephie! right?? hahaha
yapz..den went out with rice to town..met up with steph soon after...den we ate marche and walked ard heeren...to find a nice nice card v cute de for melvin..den we went taka the big big section where theyre selling lotsa toys for christmas now~! nice le tt place but the 3 of us got blurred and frustrated cox of the huge crowd..but the things there are for galz~! so cute!! hahaha and theyre fascinating eh? haha
yapz den we went home..stephie pei me to century sq to buy something for melvin and its all wrapped up niceli~!~! damn nice i think..the package la..the pressie oso damn cute..steph's taste! me oso~! hahahaha too bad jia not here if not she see le sure oso like de~! hee~! yapz den now at home loz..mahjong session going on..dad juz came home and im gonna rot a while rest den go deco my things for melvin when he goes watch movie with his frenz~!
tml is 7th dec..melvin and i gonna celebrate our first month~!~! altho e real date is 9th~! hahahahaha yeah!!! tml will b fun and cool!! fullerton?boat quay?esplanade?? wa liew!!!! hahahaha
mElyl frees a butterfly *
at |12/06/2003 06:09:00 PM|
A heart so wonderfully kind
So soft a voice, so sweet a smile,
An inspiration so worthwhile,
A sympathy so sure, so deep
A love so beautiful to keep
yday was godma's bdae..if she is alive still she wud hab been 56 this yr...went to see her yday with melvin...i cried..i saw her...and it was as though the times i spent with her were juz yesterdae..she holdin my hands..everything seems so fast..6 yrs...
i remembered how she first found out and suspected herself to get cancer...how i pei her to the doctors..and how it was confirmed..how she had her treatments how she had her first surgery the long scar on her neck..how she endured everything..how she asked me to study hards b4 relapse and got admitted to the hospital SGH how she was operated on in the ward.how tt freakin ugly act swt hiao nurse dragged the time..and got me real angry.how she said her last words to me dad and godpa and finalli how she passed away and how i pei her thru the whole wake and cremation..i cried...
if melvin wasnt there and i was alone..i wud hab broken down and cried till i shuang there...but haha got melvin!! yapz we went orchard to walk ard and eat lo..den today oso went out together he came to tamp to find me...he sick le..still come..i guilty...
yapz den i pei him while he ate his first meal for the day...den second..haha damn full lo..we walked ard and i nv nv nv nv nv forget my best frenz! rice steph and jia~!~! haha ive tot of wad to get for u guys on ur bdaes and christmas kkie!! hahaha all similar...frm the same big shop!! hope u all will like it hahahahah yapz
finalli and once again...
happi bdae godma...ull alwayz stay alive in my heart..for now and till forever..till i die...wad i said to u yday in the church...is how i realli feel now..hope to get ur blessings....love u
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at |12/05/2003 10:26:00 PM|